Eurotophobia.... The Root of all Issues....

There are a whole lot of assholes out there who derive endless bullshit theories about how the human brain actually works. My personal favorite is the suggestion that when something happens which is so traumatic, our brain has the ability to block, then store it so deep in our subconscious we have no recollection. Roll with me here and let's examine this theory with critical thinking. Grab a drink if you're a boozer; druggies, you'll get into this – drop some acid or smoke a joint. Heroin users to the back of the bus... you are beyond fucked up and talk too much for this process.

Have you ever contemplated why not one human can recollect their conception or being born? Most people don't begin retaining memories until age five. Since I suck at math, let's round this shit off. If the average human lives 70 years, yet cannot remember the first five, they have forgotten 14% of their life. For us addicts, this percentage can grow exponentially depending on how many black outs we've experienced from using. I know I met some folks during my rehab days who couldn't remember half the shit they've done. It's pretty fucking scary that by the time they die, which will be way before age 70, they'll be lucky to have remembered 10% of their life.

For this blog entry I'm just going to focus on why we don't recall the first five years of life. In my well thought, fucked up opinion, conception and the birth process are the most mortifying, psychologically damaging, and abusive experiences a human will ever endure. Once the government sticks their nose up our asses again and makes a final determination if while in the womb it's a fetus or human, shits gonna fly. Jesus score me damn good drugs if they pick human. When they call that thing human, all you who procreate are going to get slapped with double felony charges of child abuse.

You're really smoking something good if you don't believe this whole process is child abuse. The real picture is for approximately nine months, the baby is shoved in a restrictive bag. The medical profession likes pussy paint it and call this “bag” a womb. We have blocked out how restrictive this so called womb bag really is, however, we've all seen pictures. Spirit Airline seats have more fucking elbow room than this womb bag. Even if you have the misfortune of having to sit next to some 400 pound heffer there is still more space on Spirit than this damn womb bag. Next, while in this tiny womb bag, the baby is forced to live in its own shit and piss. Oh, and don't forget it's dark in there. In a nut shell, those who procreate choose to shove an innocent baby in some small dark assed bag to live in its own excrement for nine months. If that's not psychologically damaging and clear abuse, then let's elect Chuckie Manson Surgeon General.

Moving on to our next felony charge, the so called “miracle of birth”. Wake up asswipe, it's not a fucking miracle. The kid finally got up the strength to get the hell out of that smelly ass bag it was forced to live in. Now the real kicker. In order to escape, the kid spends hours trying to squeeze through this narrow chamber which is coated in slime and has a stench from fucking hell. By the time it finally escapes, its head looks like a football, every vein in its body is a blistering penis purple color, and all body parts start shaking like a junkie needing a fix because the kid knows the placenta is right behind preparing for another attack. Tim Robbins escape through the jail sewer pipe filled with prisoner shit in Shawshank Redemption was a walk in the park when compared to this “the miracle of birth.” bullshit.

Once we manage to escape from the torture endured while being in the womb bag, now is the point we begin our very first recovery in life. The longevity of the recovery clearly shows how scaring the conception/birth trauma is. For the first half of year after escape, we can only consume liquids. The ability to walk will take nearly three years. We piss and shit ourselves for four years. Even the simplest of things such as sitting up right can take 18 months due to the trauma endured. It's no wonder our brains regress almost all memories from the experience deep into our subconscious. It could also explain why so many kids are so fucked up.

Not all of us completely have been able to lock the birth trauma way and have never fully recovered from the experience. I am living proof. Society has labeled persons such as myself “homosexual.” Thousands of studies have been conducted trying to locate a gene to prove homosexuals are born predisposition to like penis. Not just their own penis, but any penis the homosexual can find. Whether it be at a night club, rest area, or bath house, we don't care who it is attached to – we fucking want it. Science needs to pull their head from their asses, if there is anything fun up there they are welcome to share, and realize the homosexuality is a phobia, not a gene. Unlike the heterosexual, the homosexual has not fully repressed the conception/birth trauma. The homo partially recalls struggling down that dark, vial smelling, canal in order to escape the womb bag. The result is the cock sucker develops Eurotophobia at an early age. Eurotophobia is the fear of vagina's. So many have suffered and allowed society to classify us as homosexual. In reality, we suffer from Eurotophobia. Unfortunately, there is currently no treatment known for Eurotophobia. Hundreds of thousands live with it on a daily basis. Because of the number of years I have had to deal with this phobia, I actually have become quite comfortable with sucking dick and taking it in the ass. In fact, it's actually quite pleasurable.

What is important to understand, is in some form, conscious or subconscious, we are all brothers and sisters in recovery. Judge not those in recovery - embrace and support them. I had a buddies wife who was always passing judgment on the dozens of recovery programs I had burned through. Little did she know her husband was still in recovery with Eurotophobia......